Fear

To catch you up...I didn't get the job in Australia. They picked a bunch of young people. Not one appears over the age of thirty. Which has totally turned me off from even looking at the site any longer. No that there's anything wrong with young people, but please, not a single applicant was qualified who has some life experience?

Anyway, enough grousing. I'm here to talk about fear. Rebuilding a career is a scary thing. I found an agent and she's terrific. She's already sent off my manuscript. And I'm filled with fear. Of two kinds. First is that fear of rejection. What if I'm rejected everywhere (which despite everyone's kind words is a distinct possibility). It isn't the rejection itself I fear. It's that my agent will then say, What was I thinking? and dump me. The second fear is the I will be published again.
There is a fear of success that no one talks about. It's a frightening thing to realized that if success happens your life will change. Change isn't always easy.

But at least it adds excitement.

And I'm looking forward to the opportunity to experience the change. (Wait...that sounds like menopause)
--Gabi

Books I'm reading now:
Dogs and Goddesses by Crusie, Stuart and Rich
Tick Tock by Dean Koontz
Watchmen by Alan Moore and Dave Gibbons
Dead after Dark by Kenyon, Ward, Squires, and Love